I just wrote this really long textpost about that important thing i told you about last night but i accidentally pressed cancel so well now i have to make it all over again but i will try to make it shorter this time
So here we go…
I have been feeling like shit these last few months (more like last few years) and when my mom had to have a surgery it kind of became too much for me so i stopped going to school because i just couldnt put on a fake smile anymore and this has been going on since the beginning of october.
So… Last night my school nurse called my mom and told her that i havent been in school for almost two months and that we need to have a meeting so im going to have a meeting next week with the school principal, school nurse, some of my teachers and both of my parents.
My mom was so angry and yelled at me, told me how stupid i was and took my ipad and laptop and tv remote and pretty much everything in my room except for my phone because i gave her my old phone instead, so i still have my phone.
The worst past though wasnt that she yelled and took my things. The worst part was how disappointed she and dad was. I disappointed them so so much and that feeling is the worst thing i have ever experienced in my entire life.
But today me and mom had a meeting with my therapist so it feels a tiny bit better now but this feeling of being a worthless daughter is still here and it hurts so much.
So i dont think i can he on tumblr so much for i dont know how long. I will be here as much as possible though because tumblr is pretty much the only place where i can be myself.
So yeah… Now you know! (If you read all of it)
I have a pretty important thing i need to say (write but u know what i mean!)
But right now my phone is dying and shit is awful here so yeah i will hopefully be able to borrow someone’s charger tonight when everyone is asleep
Just so i can tell you guys whats going on so you will know why i wont be here for i dont know how long
i was arguing with my (antigay) dad about gay rights and at the end i was like “i totally crushed u tbh i countered every argument you had” and he was like “but did you change my viewpoint tho” and i was like “i can lead a horse to water but i cant make it stare its reflection in the face and realize its an ass”